Time To Bitch

I just realized I'm really pissed because it's too hot. I can't handle it, there's not even a little breeze in here. What is this?! It's October and the temperature is getting higher. WTF. I've been wanting to wear some warmer clothes, like a nice cardigan that I can't wear because of this damn hot weather. Plus my damn bacne if that's how you even spell it, well it won't let me wear tank tops which is what I would like to wear. I hate having bad genes. Plus I cant reach my back that well, IT'S MY BACK. I'm not some extremely flexible person with crazy arms. Then of course I have to go to this party and this girl complains how she has like one tiny little pimple thats barely noticeable. I'm just here like...fuck you I cant even wear tank tops that cover most of my back. Oh and then she's like, I have to loose weight when she's like super skinny and athletic. Then there's me with the stretch marks and cellulite like, yeah, I wore a bathing suit like 4 times this summer. Then people always say I have to have so much confidence to get a guy, I'm just like, there are people with way less confidence than me that have boyfriends.

Well that would lead to neverending complaints.

So moving on to...oh no. I just had this flashback to English class and we're reading this book it's called The God of Small Things, it's about this Indian family with secrets, so many secrets. And I feel like an idiot for complaining about my shit that doesn't matter. Everything seems so insignificant. Wait no.

What will I do with the rest of my life?

This is probably epicly boring to read. I'm so sorry whoever decided to keep reading up until now. Basically I haven't been able to pinpoint anything I'm good at or am passionate about. I must be a cold robot with no emotions.



(This is possibly favorite cat picture on the internet.)

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All I do all day is have fantasies about this man:

I chose that picture because it's just so damn cute and normal :)
And I wonder why I don't have a boyfriend.

TV Wants To Kill The World

OH GOD! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THOSE DAMN PEOPLE MAKING GLEE?! Seriously, they really must be trying to test us all. Push us to the edge, see who breaks. And they had to go on this damn hiatus and the last thing they left us with was a damn cliffhanger. HOW COULD THIS BE?! I hate them. Especially because Darren Criss looked so damn good in that last scene. And now my mind is trailing off...I guess I'll just watch every episode of The Big Bang Theory, and then maybe I'll move onto House if I get bored or run out of episodes. At least How I met Your Mother is still on. Thank God.

You know what, I wonder if I should just change my identity to something random, so I can just write whatever the hell I want to and no one would know it's me. Oooo interesting. Hmm...I think that sounds like a fantastic idea, I'll do it now.

Oh man I have the SATs tomorrow and my hand is cramping up and I want to watch the Orphanage. I must leave NOW.

For my next entry I will tell you about this one guy I can't get enough of, I crave him like I crave ice cream when I'm on my period. God that's so bad for me, I should stop. Haha one day. Anyway this guy is a beast and every time I see him it's like my mind explodes.

And then go my ovaries.

Bored

Hey interwebs people. I'm reporting to you from the top floor of the library in my little school. I should be working on my paper on this composer Kirby Shaw but I decided that can wait becuase he doesn't have a wikipedia. I don't even know why my teacher gave me the option to write two and a half pages for this guy becuase there probably isn't even enought information on the internet about him. The biography he gave on his site wasn't even that long, his birthday wasn't even there. This is just a stupid project to take up time. Why couldn't we watch a musical instead, oh wait I'm sorry, that would be way too fun, inspiring and helpful. As you can probably tell I don't really like my Choir teacher but it's mostly because of the ridiculous songs she keeps choosing for our choir to sing. We're doing jazz songs right now and killing them, and not in the good way. It's jazz murder.

Oh and by writing this at least I'll add a little to the amount that shows up about him on google. I can finish this now, I'll tell you about any other interesting things later on today.

Hello Again

So what's up internet world. God it's weird doing this again. I know like no one uses blogger and it's all about Tumblr and stuff now. But face it Tumblr is waaayyy better than this...wow that was rude. Well anyway, they're two different worlds. So I will be talking about interesting things about my senior year of high school. Bitch about some things too like the fact that my mom won't be home until the 17th of October and my dad is taking care of us. Well I guess it's more like me and my sister are taking care of us. Well...I just lost interest in writing this sooooo. Bye :D Here's a sexy pic of Darren Criss

Day 10 - A Song By Your Favorite Band

Ok this is going to be tough. I always seem to tell people different bands are my favorite. It switches between Linkin Park, Paramore, Panic! At The Disco, and Fall Out Boy. Those are the bands that I could listen to practically every song and love all of them but I really think that right now it might be Fall Out Boy. And the song that I pick is...oh I can't decide. Right now I think it's between What A Catch Donnie and The [Shipped] Gold Standard. But there are so many good songs and unfortunately I don't understand the songs all the time but I really haven't taken the time to understand them. I just like them. I might change this later but for now its What A Catch Donnie by Fall Out Boy.

Day 9 - A Song That Makes You Hopeful

I know this is waaaaayyy late but I'm bored and I have nothing better to do. Lies. Anyway, I think this song would be Bigger Than My Body by John Mayer. At least that's the one song that comes to mind right now. Or maybe She's Always A Woman by Billy Joel, for some reason that song really makes me feel like not all men are pigs :P well I know they aren't but it does give me hope. I don't know it gives me that feeling that I get after watching a really good 80's romance movie about highschool. I am a sucker for those movies. I don't really know what song would make me hopeful and about what. I don't know if I've ever found a song that makes me hopeful. This was a hard one.

Day 8 - A Song That Reminds You Of Your "First Love"

I guess if I had to count someone as my first love. It would be my first "boyfriend". The reason I put it in quotation markes is because I don't really know if it counts or not. I mean we didn't even hold hands. Well anyways the one song that always reminds me of him is Sunday Bloody Sunday by U2. That probably sounds weird but it's because he really liked U2 and that song. He didn't really talk about music too much except U2 from what I know so I associate him with U2.

Day 7 - A Song That Reminds You Of The Past Summer

I don't exactly have one song for today, I have four. And later I'll probably look back on this day and remember a song that should have gone in this list but whatever, these are the songs that I can remember right now:

OMG - Usher ft. Will.I.Am
Airplanes - B.O.B ft. Hailey Williams
Your Love Is My Drug - Ke$ha
Nothin' On You - B.O.B ft. Bruno Mars
Billionaire - Travis McCoy ft. Bruno Mars

They are in no particular order btw and they all go with amazing memories :) I love summertime.

Day 6 - A Song That Reminds You Of A Best Friend

This has got to be Don't Cha by The Pussycat Dolls. This was a hilarious song and will always remind me of my friends in Mexico. Good times. Good times.

Day 5 - A Song That Is Often Stuck In Your Head

I can't think of any at all. But I do remember I used to get soooo many Hannah Montana songs stuck in my head when I had American cable. Songs like Everybody Makes Mistakes, Nobody's Perfect, and Best Of Both Worlds. Those songs were so effing catchy I couldn't get them out of my head, even now I am scared of singing them in my head because they WILL get stuck there.

Day 4 - A Song That Calms You Down

I have two songs for this one because I didn't know which one to pick. So either Chris Deburgh - Lady In Red or Peter Gabriel - In Your Eyes. They are both so sweet and relaxing. But I also listen to smooth jazz when I need to relax which is where the iTunes radio really becomes handy. I used to listen to it a lot when I was little like in Kinder-garden. Oh yes and In Your Eyes is the song John Cusack was playing on that boombox outside that girl's window in Say Anything.

Day 3 - A Song That Reminds You Of One/Both Of Your Parents

I'm late on this one and Day 4 because I've been busy with friends and Carnaval. But for this one I'm choosing anything by Sting. Watching the concerts on DVD are one of my favorite memories. If I had to choose one song that reminds me of that I think it would be Desert Rose.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_n6qYkEOvw

I love this song.

Day 2 - A Song That Reminds You Of Your Most Recent Ex-Boyfriend

Lily Allen - Never Gonna Happen

"I don't wanna hurt you
'Cause I don't think it's a virtue
But you and I have come to our end
Believe me when I tell you that
I never wanna see you again

And please can you stop calling
'Cause it's getting really boring
And I've told you I don't want to be friends
Believe me when I tell you that
I never wanna see you again

How on earth could I be any more obvious?
It never really did and now it's never
Gonna happen with the two of us

I don't understand what it is that you're chasing after
But it makes me really sad to hear
You sound so desperate, it just makes it harder"

This is just the first part, the second part really has nothing to do with my relationship. But this completely explains the end of it. The second part is about how she uses him for sex, I would never sleep with that guy...ew *shudders*.

Day 1 - A Song From Your Childhood

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-3vPxKdj6o
I remember sitting in my room right next to the speakers of my radio singing along and trying to hit all the notes :) Childhood memories are amazing.

25 Days 25 Songs

Now I have to post something everyday.

Grammys 2011

This year I wasn't really paying attention to who won what but the performances. And I found out that I love this one band that played before Bob Dylan, they're called Mumford and Sons and they're British which is funny because I'm not usually that into British bands but they're sound is amazing. At first they were going to start playing and I saw they had a banjo and I was joking around about the banjo and stuff but then they began and I was in awe. They were so skilled. It was an amazing performance . I loved the banjo guy and the singer was amazing. They were playing so insanely.

Then there were other performances like Muse playing "Uprising". I didn't think it was amazing I mean I don't really like them in the first place, they had "Starlight" and then they went downhill from there for me. During the song they had "dancers" come on to the stage and pretend to riot. It was retarded.




The opening with all the awesome divas like Christina Aguilera, Jennifer Hudson and Martina McBride was really good. They're voices gave me goose bumps. I also loved Bruno Mars's little bit where the cameras switched to black and white and the performance of "Forget You" with Gweneth Paltrow, I was a bit skeptical of it when I heard about it but when I saw it I thought she had a really great voice and Cee Lo had an amazing voice too but of course.




That's not even half of it though. There was Lady Gaga, Eminem, Rihanna, Drake, Barbra Streisand and more. Leave a comment about what you thought of the performances :)

S & M

Ok so I thought Rihanna's new music video for S & M wasn't so bad. I actually liked it. I think I liked it because the whole time it seemed like she was just telling everyone to STFU while she was flipping us the bird. Haha I don't know why I liked that aspect of it but it was good. Oh and I don't know why everyone was flipping out about how sexual it was, 30 Seconds to Mars's video for Hurricane was way worse. Here it is if you can't find it on Youtube:

http://www.youclubvideo.com/video/157491/new-clip-video-rihanna-s-m

Life's Kickin' Me Down

The only way I can deal with it is with Jazz and Blues. Louis Armstrong especially, my god he has such a voice and that trumpet. That's it, that's all I need to feel better. I swear sometimes I honestly don't think I belong in this time. Usually I listen to 80s stuff though, that's if I'm dealing with issues of the heart and asking myself why life is so damn complicated, I pop in an 80s movie and all the questioning and hurt goes away. Now I'm healing and mmmm... it feels so good. I just can't describe it. So amazing and soulful and delicious.

Summertime-Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIDOEsQL7lA

Ranting (Forget This One)

I should be blogging about music but right now music isn't what I want to blog about so I'm going to rant about my day like any other normal person. Or maybe not. No. Normal people dump this sort of crap on their friends but right now I don't have any friends available to hear my problems. So for now you're going to be my friends.

I just want attention so don't even read this.

You know what maybe I don't want attention. I mean I don't even know why I want to tell you all my problems, why the hell I have been so pissed off at school lately and why I can't concentrate. But I will anyways because secretly I want people to know.

Why the hell do guys have to be such idiots? I mean I've been nice to this one guy, I really thought we were like maybe friends almost slightly more than acquaintances. Then he flips out on me and starts asking for sex. Really. I mean maybe he was kidding, maybe he wasn't, I have no idea, I can't read minds. All I know for sure is that we hardly talk anymore, not my fault he made a fool of himself. I don't know who he thinks but I am but I'm definitely not a slut.

I hope he feels like a retard. Sometimes I think he does.

We haven't brought it up at all. I'm not the kind of person that can do that easily. But the last time I blogged I think I wrote about when I screwed up and let my friends write crap to him that made no sense. I apologized like 2 days later. No apology from him yet. I doubt I'm getting one because he probably doesn't give a shit.

BTW if this is making no sense to you at all it's probably because my head is screwed up and I have Whip My Hair on replay. I told you not to read it. Oh I wonder if that pic at the beginning threw you off?

So for now my plan is to just shake 'em off and not to let his hatin' get me off my grind.

I hope I hurt his ego by declining his offer. Ha. Ass.

New Year, Same Old Problems

Well congratulations everyone we have made it through another decade. Exept for you people that died, uh I guess you can spend the new year with Michael Jackson. Or maybe there was no new year for you...questions, questions. Stupid. Anyways my year was pretty cool I guess it started off OK. I mean there wasn't anything totally awesome going on in my life, I was at Disneyworld which was pretty cool. I mostly looking forward to moving here. Now that I'm here it's pretty cool nothing extra amazing. I'm still alive I guess.

That's not the point though. I mean I have been feeling extra depressed lately and I don't know why, I've been thinking too much probably. This one guy who I think is my friend won't talk to me anymore for some stupid reason and I dont know how to make good friends. Anyways so about this one guy.

We talk a lot especially during free period but then my sister and my awesome friend Gavi(that wasn't sarcasm by the way she is pretty awesome but what she's about to do next isn't) were talking to him on facebook. Gavi being herself decides to go into the topic of sex and saying a bunch of random crap on the subject. Talking about my virginity and stuff and he really had to go. Then my sister starts talking to him and saying the weirdest things like "I'm yo baby's daddy". And this is all happening on my account. Oh my wonderful friends. So she keeps saying this stuff and not mentioning it's her and not me. She even goes on to messaging him.

I apologized the next day, or maybe the day after becuase I had a party to go to and I was pretty busy. And he never responds. So I decided maybe he was busy and not at the computer. So I tried again another day. No response. So I decided that was it I had even tried making jokes about the whole thing, I looked like an idiot. And now I guess he thinks I am one.

I don't know why I am being so stubborn but I won't talk to him. Honestly I've been acting like I hate him, he's really pissing me off. I don't want to be the first one to say something I don't want to break. It probably has something to do with my past and shit but that would be way to long a blog. So eventually I'll probably talk first, if I don't I might feel like I've accomplished something. I think he's being completely immature though, I mean it was just some stupid stuff online. My sister thought he didn't have a dad or something and "Baby's Daddy" might have triggered some emotional explosion. I laughed. He does have a dad btw.

So maybe I'll say something maybe I'll ask why he's being such an immature little girl. But I'm not that mean so maybe I'll just say hey.