I have no clue why today I'm saying this but I'm gonna die a lonely virgin. I know guys hate it when girls are desperate whiny bitches, but today is my day to be just that, especially because there are no guys in my life. I guess this starts with the fact that I go to COMMUNITY COLLEGE AND I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS GOING NOWHERE. Glad to get that off my chest. Then when I finally think "Hey maybe I have a chance with this one cute guy in my Communications class." He's taken. Of course he is, why should that surprise me at all? Then here comes fucking Misha Collins and his beautiful ass life which for some reason I can't stop reading about.
For those of you who don't know Misha Collins plays the angel Castiel in the show Supernatural which I have quickly become addicted to. So Misha is introduced and I'm automatically hooked, and I have to find out who this beautiful ass man is. So naturally I look him up on IMDB. He's married to his high school sweetheart, they have two kids, he built their house and practically all their furniture. Then of course like an idiot I go looking for the story about how he proposed. He made her engagement ring! THEY'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 20 YEARS. So now I'm over here dying because I know I'll never get that.
Now for some reason all I want is to be homeless so I can try and figure out what the hell my life is supposed to amount to. I don't know exactly how losing everything will help me figure that out, but I figure if I hit my low there's no where to go but up. I just feel like giving up on whatever love life God had planned for me and focusing on myself. Unless that is the point. Then great.
This rant didn't make me feel any better than when I started. I actually feel worse. What is wrong with me?
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