This is definitely a hot topic amongst my friends. Not because we all want to be super skinny and are always complaining about our weight, almost none of us do that. Of course there are some that have been on and off about their body image, but who doesn't have self confidence issues every once in a while. With summer, prom, graduation, and the big move right around the corner I have been thinking a lot about loosing weight. I usually don't think about it that much because I'm usually worrying about other things plus that's not really something I've always stressed over. Not saying I'm skinny or anything, I'm definitely not, I've got more of those Latina thighs and ass genes, but I'm not overweight.
Anyway the point is sometimes I do work out and I don't want to brag about it which I'm not doing but sometimes I feel like if I mention it, it brings up this whole topic about how everyone complains about their body and how they're "sooo fat". Like this one girl I know who is super skinny and makes it a thing to bring up how she feels huge and that she needs to lose weight. She says it right in the middle of class all the time, in the hallway, it's impossible not to hear her. I just want people to know I NEVER WANT TO BE LIKE THAT. Basically I'm scared to ever bring up the fact that I've been working out because I don't want to risk sounding like this girl, not that I usually need to bring it up. I just feel bad that I feel this way.
I think this idea might have to do with the fact that I tell myself that I want to get healthy and feel confident but then another part of me says, shouldn't you feel confident in your own body? I mean that's what people tell you all the time right? Then for some odd reason I start to feel bad for working out and not feeling completely happy with my body. I'd love to be able to walk down the beach or by the pool in my bikini without feeling like I have to put my arms around my stomach and cover everything up, so automatically I think, "Well if I lost a couple of pounds I'd feel a lot better." I don't exactly know, I want to feel strong and confident and look amazing but I also want to make sure I'm not going about this the wrong way.
Either way I'm going to continue on my road to loosing weight for summer. It's not like I have much to worry about for school so I'm really going to use my time wisely (for once). Oh and sorry I might start blogging about this more because I want to keep myself focused and I don't want to have to complain to my friends about taking away the Ho Hos, Oreos, and cheesecake too much. Damn you beautiful desserts.
Oh and BTW these are tags I never imagined using on this blog. :P
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