My math textbook is probably burning in hell right now and that's why I can't find it. In a couple of hours, more like an hour, I will be taking my Math SL FINAL EXAM. I know I probably shouldn't be freaking out over it so I decided to leave the room where everyone was freaking out. It was becoming extremely stressful. I gave myself this big extravagant pep talk this morning as I looked at myself in the mirror. Now I'm beginning to see that this test doesn't matter for much and even if I do get a three or four I shouldn't worry. But that's just my predicament, for other people this test does matter, a lot. So to those people, may the odds be ever in your favor and lets hope the gods look favorably upon you. Oh and I brought little Thor (from the cup I got at the movies) with me just in case I needed a little comfort and a laugh. Or I could just look at this:
Maybe it's not the test I'm so worried about, maybe it's the aftermath. Haha...after-MATH, oh god I'm becoming my mother. Well anyway I know that my friends will probably be drained (I'll probably be drained too) and then they might get all emotional and start crying (I don't blame them I did too during mocks). I have no idea how to comfort them, I'm so awkward when it comes to that and I always end up saying the wrong thing so I usually just keep my mouth shut. I hope I don't cry, that would be very bad. Mostly because I don't have as much at stake here, then if I get upset everyone is gonna be like, "Ugh OMG why is CARINA crying, this test isn't even important for her." But they don't understand. I used to be great at Math, I wasn't a genius or anything but I was good enough for Pre AP Math. I used to get straight As, 100s on practically all my quizzes and tests. Then I came here and for some reason my Math grade has fallen and I've never gotten all marks on a test or quiz since the beginning of 11th grade. I have no idea what's wrong with me. Well I have an idea but there's nothing I can do about it now, the year is over and all I have left to show for my knowledge in Math is this test. And I'm most likely going to fail. Going from straight As to failing, and then people ask why this school sucks.
Right now I'm just trying to calm myself down now and let what happens happen. I shouldn't beat myself up so much. I hope this goes better than I think it will, it probably won't but whatever.
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